writing stuff

i wonder sometimes if i should even bother writing in a journal anymore. i mean how do i know if that will ever get checked or read? & who will read it when im old or after i die? i remember writing whatever i felt ages ago in my journals without a worry. those wonderful journals are gone sadly enough (due to my dads anger rounds-many of my letters & journals were destroyed) but after getting married or a little time before that my writing had to be curbed. i could no longer write what i felt exactly as i was afraid that someone may discover it. i had to be careful. i started blogging a few years back. i remember sitting in my office in cafe noir & it was pouring outside. i decided that i should start journaling online as i was always around a computer. i havent stopped since. i do it at my convenience. & i have a very tiny audience (especially after losing my old blog address to the internet blogger world) but i dont mind. i rather share little as possible as it stays better that way. i just want a record of my life stuff & my ramblings. its nice to be able to vent sometimes. ive been an amateur writer ever since i was in the 2nd grade. i adored it. i dealt with hard things & feelings in general thru writing. i dont know huge words or am very good at it but all i know is that i enjoy it. so i do it. whenever i can.
anyhow random stuff:
i think that people that dont say things outloud in whatever way seem to suffer more than those that do. its bad to keep anything bottled up for too long (except for maybe a good bottle of wine). i think that people that are insecure owe that to their upbringing. insecurity is a bad asset to have. it outshines all other things. i think that the people that you let into your life are family, not just blood realtions. theres something that they are adding to your life, thats why god has introduced you to them.
i think that its easier to be nice than to be mean.
i also think its best to say sorry when you know youre wrong than to play it off.