the big girl bed & card making

ive been busy doing up stuff in the house. have'nt been out much but still seems like lots been going on. on wed nite i sat there & made birthday cards-3d-ish & i thought they were terrific. at like 11 at nite when it was all being done.

then thursday was spent searching for a proper mattress for the princess & the room was set up with her way too big girl bed. i didnt have my own room until i was like 13. she actually slept in it as well. as dahling thought it was best to get her the whole bedspread that she was wishing for (disney princess). it was so hard for me to settle on that as i wanted that whole theme of shabby chic to continue. i settled with it thinking that she does deserve to have a normal kid childhood with the character crap that all kids adore when they are this young. ahhh. i guess pretty pink & white sheets can come into play a little later. so there is a princess soft throw & bedsheets to complete the deal. she loves it there. its a sleigh bed that cant be seen well in the sucky pics i took with a flash while she was sleeping or else its like glowy in there.

anyhow i was kind of teary eyed last nite as i was overwhelmed with all that i am blessed with in my life.

there were times when i was younger & used to babysit for folks in their big ol' houses & wonder if that kinda of life would be mine & lo & behold-here i am sitting on it-in it-whichever seems right. its amazing to see everything come together. for example: there are things in ms. s' room that i have been collecting for years as things that i adored & now they are all in there & they come together quite well. you see its not the things that i find comfort in-its the time that has passed-the time that i spent searching & then loving what ive picked out & bringing it home. & now its passed onto someone i never imagined would be in my life at those times that i was sitting for other peoples kids or walking around at on lazy daze in cary when i was young. i cant believe how time passes & what changes it brings. its spectacular. heck its overwhelming.

my little girl is so grown up. she tells me 'dont be sad mama" when she sees me lying down, she tells me not to worry, that "itll be ok", & "you'll feel better in no time". words that are suppose to be comforting anyway but said in my girls voice & it makes you want to crumble.

i am blessed & i acknowledge that. i always want to. nothing was ever handed to us so its even more special. god has been good to us, to me. i can only ask for the same goodness in the future

phewwwwwwwwwwwwww.