happy 9th to my beloved

i hope micheal jackson rests in peace.
i cant believe how short life can be & it just makes me feel that one must live it to the fullest as you never know when it will end. its too too short is what i keep feeling. you must do what makes you happy but sometimes that step is hard to make.

farah fawcett too. may she RIP. beautiful woman! cancer sucks!

i went to someones house & it was lovely. you could feel the love there. or altleast you could feel the love that built the house there. they had 2 boys & 1 girl who have their own kids now. & it was nice. you could see that this house is always filled with people. & im sure they all have problems but its a central point to meet & who doesnt have problems?!! & its a blessing to have that. these 2 people got together & they created this together. & its nice.
the girl said that with all this chaos all over she wouldnt know how else to have it.asides that mother & daughter run a buisness together as well.
just right. they have done their fair share of helping out as well as enjoying themselves. its just nice. it was a well established house with enough chaos to make the couple sleep well at night.

they have it balanced .

many times we set ourselves to have all that but something comes in the way & youre blown down-for a little bit. & you feel like you may never get back up the way it was & that strong but you just dont know whats in store for you.
maybe youll get up stronger.
maybe youll get up & know youre better than all this.
maybe itll make you the best that you can be.
maybe this was the way it was suppose to be to make you realize the worth of it all.
maybe...

i cant believe that its been 9 years since we have been together. i just cant believe it. i heard your voice on the phone the first time & felt like i could be open with you without any judgements. but then when i met you on june 22nd of 2000 i knew i could spend years & years with you all safe & loved.
i just knew that it would take a little bit of input to have a huge output.
i knew that you were worth conquering.
i knew that i was safe with you.
i always felt that you were home.
i knew that you were the one that i had to marry.
thankyou for being home to me. you have no idea how good it feels to come home everyday.
i love you & thats as plain & as complicated as it can be.
can you believe it?
who needs flowers & presents & cards when you just have the presence of one another in your life?!!!