long nap

as i sit here today after waking up at 6 from what was suppose to be a midday nap im kinda lost. i mean what are we to do with ourselves in life to pass the time?
ms. s was sleeping next to me & dahling wasnt home. i felt as if i didnt wake up & then try to wake ms. s up no one would even notice. i feel like this sometimes & its a disheartning feeling. its like no one even knows whats up with us. & if i didnt wake up then no one would wake my child up either. i dont know if this makes any sense but do you see what im saying? its like no ones around, no one cares. its a lonely feeling. i bet people feel like this sometimes.
ahhh
& what can you do on a saturday after your long nap if you have no where to go or no one to see? we went to the mall, we went to the park  during the day & now there was no where to be. but what could we do now to pass the time until we have to go to bed again. its all such a repeat show of time pass. its a yucky thing.
lately i have no energy & all i want to do is rest or eat. im tired & i could really care less about my house being cleaned from top to bottom. id like for it to be but i just cant do it. i want to be looked after & i dont want to have to look after others. its so difficult to do that without being the meany!
& you cant always hold onto the little things that are said in a relationship occasionally when there was no intended harm. we are allowed to say random senseless things sometimes. it doesnt need to mean that we need to dissect the whole "issue" & needing a thearpist type of thing. goodness. just let it go. i dont want to always have to be careful of everything i want to or have to say. it just feels too uptight. ok thats that.